Feb.12 This was a difficult day with/for Mom. I start every morning with her and honestly her bad mornings affect my entire day. Today was no exception but the fact that she called me the night before and cussed me out for not going to her house to take her to her house probably exacerbated my reactions. I know this is the disease and not her, but I am often the target her frustrations and confusion lands on. So I am claiming my guilty pleasure as my joy for the day. Survivor began tonight and I taped it so I could speed watch it later.
Feb. 13 I found 3 free Kindle books that look promising. Since I have been binge reading lately I am thrilled to discover them. I also had a surprise mid day FaceTime call from Pip. She was home because she spent all night barfing but felt much better and needed to talk to someone. I was not at school like her friends and became her default contact. She does call me every morning on her way to school so I am used talking to her, but the FT call was a treat.
Feb. 14 Obviously Valentine's Day has its own joys. I have a vase filled with blush roses on the table and I have a box of baby bites from Pastry Arts in the dining room . I was at the store a quarter before 10 and had to wait in line for about 15 minutes . I guess everyone wanted delicious mini cakes for Valentine's Day. I did not go to Cookie Fix though. By a little after 10 the line to get into the shop was halfway down the block and it did not even open until 10:30. They are delicious, but I can wait. There will be another non keto day in March and I will get some then maybe.
While I was in the car Pip called via FaceTime again. I was driving and could not see her though I could hear her as she pulled out everything I sent in her Valentine box. The sloth blanket and the 10 button pink satin little girls gloves were the huge hits, but the chocolate was a close third. I love being a grandmother. It is the best job in the world.
The last joy involved a change of plans. We had decided to go see Parasite. Things are blooming here now and my eyes have been really itchy. I felt like trying to read subtitles through itchy teary eyes was not a great idea so we decided to rent Harriet. The nearest Redbox is between our home and a nearby bluff. After grabbing the DVD we drove there, parked and watched a gorgeous sunset.
Feb. 15 Two of our favorite people and favorite pooch came over for a post Valentines dinner.
Feb. 16 TheHub and I went to see Richard Jewel. I remember the bombing well and remember all the following chaos. It was a well done movie.
Feb. 17 The day included remembering my MIL If she were still living she would have been 99.
Feb. 18 Book club night! Continuing the theme meal honoring an author’s birthday month. We ate at The Red Pearl. Delicious Chinese food. Thank you Amy Tan.
I got busy and did not keep a food diary this week. Just as well, since I fell off the keto wagon Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I decided to fast Monday and now am back to keto eating. It is not nearly as much fun!
Feb. 13 I found 3 free Kindle books that look promising. Since I have been binge reading lately I am thrilled to discover them. I also had a surprise mid day FaceTime call from Pip. She was home because she spent all night barfing but felt much better and needed to talk to someone. I was not at school like her friends and became her default contact. She does call me every morning on her way to school so I am used talking to her, but the FT call was a treat.
Feb. 14 Obviously Valentine's Day has its own joys. I have a vase filled with blush roses on the table and I have a box of baby bites from Pastry Arts in the dining room . I was at the store a quarter before 10 and had to wait in line for about 15 minutes . I guess everyone wanted delicious mini cakes for Valentine's Day. I did not go to Cookie Fix though. By a little after 10 the line to get into the shop was halfway down the block and it did not even open until 10:30. They are delicious, but I can wait. There will be another non keto day in March and I will get some then maybe.
While I was in the car Pip called via FaceTime again. I was driving and could not see her though I could hear her as she pulled out everything I sent in her Valentine box. The sloth blanket and the 10 button pink satin little girls gloves were the huge hits, but the chocolate was a close third. I love being a grandmother. It is the best job in the world.
The last joy involved a change of plans. We had decided to go see Parasite. Things are blooming here now and my eyes have been really itchy. I felt like trying to read subtitles through itchy teary eyes was not a great idea so we decided to rent Harriet. The nearest Redbox is between our home and a nearby bluff. After grabbing the DVD we drove there, parked and watched a gorgeous sunset.
Feb. 15 Two of our favorite people and favorite pooch came over for a post Valentines dinner.
Feb. 16 TheHub and I went to see Richard Jewel. I remember the bombing well and remember all the following chaos. It was a well done movie.
Feb. 17 The day included remembering my MIL If she were still living she would have been 99.
Feb. 18 Book club night! Continuing the theme meal honoring an author’s birthday month. We ate at The Red Pearl. Delicious Chinese food. Thank you Amy Tan.
I got busy and did not keep a food diary this week. Just as well, since I fell off the keto wagon Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I decided to fast Monday and now am back to keto eating. It is not nearly as much fun!
I think doing KETO alone would suck the joy right out of my life. I have been avoiding carbs and that is totally sucking (although I have lost 3 lbs) Pip sounds wonderful
ReplyDeleteIt gets hard to stay on it, but I need to. Pip is my favorite girl and I love getting calls or FaceTime
DeleteI do love your joys, and there were some beauties this week.
ReplyDeleteI am a big, big fan of Amy Tan too. I really loved her autobiography.
Any Tan is so talented. She is also a huge supporter of the arts which makes her doubly impressive.
DeleteI was the target of my grandmother's unfounded wrath and accusations. I was only fourteen. Even though I knew it was not her, it still hurt for many years.
ReplyDeleteI am not carrying any residual worry about Mom's outbursts. It stings for a moment then I can easily let it roll off my back. What hurts most is her confusion and frustrations that lead to it. It breaks my heart that she has to go through this
DeleteYou are doing really well in finding joy on those more difficult than normal days, Anne. (((HUGS))).
ReplyDeleteIt is just my new normal. My job is to not get frustrated ( at least outwardly) with Mom.
DeleteSeems like you had a good week talking to your granddaughter and enyoying things that you like. As for your mom, yes, it is the disease and not her. I am sure she loved you dearly when she was not sick. Wishing you peace and patience to get through harder days.
ReplyDeleteI love talking and being silly with Pip. She brightens every day.
DeleteHow old is Pip now?
ReplyDeleteShe is 6 now.
DeleteHa, I see Peter parker is doing the rounds of all of us (again)! I'm sorry to hear your mom was so mean. It's got to be so hard even though you know it's the disease talking. But I'm glad Pip made up for it. I can't wait to be a grandma!
ReplyDeleteBeing a grandmother is the greatest.
DeleteGrand kids are the best, Mothers can be the worst, but hang in there. KETO low carb, my life in a nutshell and I get very tired of it.
ReplyDeleteI know Mom can't help how her brain is acting/reacting. I am at a place now where I am not trying to help her get better. I am just trying ( and Mostly failing) to keep her safe and as happy as possible. Ok we are succeeding with safety, but not so much in the happiness arena.
DeleteI agree being a grandparent is the absolute best. I'm not a fan of Keto - I could not live without my carbs, though I have cut back.
ReplyDeleteIt's sad that your mom is focusing her frustration and anger on you. It's not easy being the punching bag. Finding your joy in the day is a good antidote.
Keto is not fun, and right now is not working but then for the Valentine's weekend I pretty much are whatever I wanted, and I wanted mostly chocolate.
DeleteI feel for you with your mother, I have a friend going through that and it's amazing the things her mother says, but we know she wouldn't say that and it's the nasty disease. Mother's can be trying at times normally, and I know I am! ;-0 So take care and good luck with caring for her. I admire you with the Keto for so glad, that takes stamina, for sure!
ReplyDeleteSome good stuff for you this week, some bad. Sounds like overall the joy outweighed the misery -- which good.
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