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Today I have some questions that I can never find the answers to.  Before I begin let me tell you just a little bit about me. I have been a SAHM since my first child was born, and now that the youngest is away at school I guess I am just a SAH.  I was always the one who did without so whoever needed shoes, jeans, school fees, or whatever could have it, and honestly I never really minded. There were a lot of tight financial times, but one thing we never compromised on was food.  I have always been a pretty decent cook and could always make something really delicious using inexpensive ingredients.

 I love good and tasty food.  I would love to have a month of deliciousness and never repeat the same meal twice.  I would love to have the meals prepared for me and never have to worry about cleaning the kitchen.  And I know how delusional all those loves are, which brings me to my questions.


Why am I the only one who can eat the same thing 2 days in a row?  I hate wasting food so if I have to have leftover vegetable soup 5 days for lunch to finish it, I will do it.

Why am I the only one who sees a box of Corn Flakes with 1 serving left and will eat it for breakfast or lunch even though I really don't like cereal at all?

Why am I the one who will actually look in the refrigerator and see the half clamshell of strawberries that have to be eaten today or tossed and eat them instead of what I really want.

Why am I the only one who will look and see if a box of crackers is empty before opening another one? (Same question applies to any and all snack foods)

Why am I supposed to know at 10 am what I am going to cook for supper so other unnamed individuals can plan their lunch without the possibility of having to eat chicken prepared 2 different ways in the same day? (For the record, I rarely have any idea what I am going to cook until I am actually in the kitchen cooking)

Why am I the only one who can empty the dishwasher?

And the most important question is, after all these years of never having these questions answered, why am I even wondering what the answer is?

The Silver Lining AKA Pip

My dad passed away one week ago. I feel his absence daily when I don't get to see him or hear his voice and know I will spend the rest of my life missing him. But, even with all the sadness that goes along with a loss, there have been moments of sheer bliss this week.  Son1 and his family flew in for the services and all stayed a few days.  Mama K had to fly back early for work but Son1 and The Cutest Girl in the World (also known as the granddaughter) stayed a few extra days.

Instead of grief I was surrounded by the presence of an 18 month old filled with sheer happiness and wonder.  At a time when my mom, sister and I would have been feeling the most grief and sense of loss, we were being delighted by her antics and songs. I am fairly certain there is nothing in this world sweeter than a little voice singing "Twinkle, Twinkle" or "ABCD".  I believe the universe often sends the right medicine at the right time and Pip was just what the doctor ordered.

                                                        Pop would love it!

p.s. Oh, and I may or may not have taught this sweet girl to jump on the bed.  Hey! Someone has to, right?

In Memory

Today Dad left this plane to begin his voyage on the other side. I am very fortunate to have had both of my parents for so long and now begin the rest of my life missing one of them.

I want to thank you Pop for keeping us laughing until today.  I am forever in your debt for your unconditional love and support and so grateful you were my dad.

Pop's all-time favorite hymn